Thursday, May 15, 2008

Awww, 26. Someone told me I'm now in my late 20s. Yeah, you suck.

So here's the deal. In some areas of life I've far exceeded my expectations for 26. I never expected to be a full time youth minister in such a large church by this point. In fact, for a while I thought that would never happen. I consider my career to be a huge accomplishment, like running a marathon or curing cancer- ok not quite.

So, here's the missing piece of 26. Right now I'm sitting on my bed writing this completely alone. Honestly, there was never a moment in my life when I thought I would graduate from college without a husband. Silly I know, but all of my closest friends managed it. So, with birthdays, as the number increases so does the alone-ness- not necessarily loneliness, but just an increased sense of alone. It's just me, and even the best parents in the world, a million messages from my teens, and several free meals from friends just can't quite fill the gap. So as I stare at 26, I'm wishing someone was standing by my side looking at it with me.


Cary said...

Don't waste your singleness by making it a waiting game for a spouse. As a friend of mine wrote recently: "Someday I hope to marry and have children, but I have learned that being single isn't all about waiting to find love. It's about living the life God's given me NOW. Loving those around me, serving others when I can, and experiencing the joys and blessings he has given me each day."

If singleness is a blessing, and togetherness is a blessing, then every day of your life will be a blessing.

Allison said...

I love you, and appreciate your honesty. You are great!

Maddie said...

I understand you anxiousness, I think MOST people have been there thinking adn feeling the same things. There are certain aspects to singleness that I do miss. Being about to shop without answering to the "family budget" beign about to go and do what you want, when you want, becuase you want. Cooking and Cleaning sucked doing it for me but for a boy too? double sucks. Jared is a VERY clean adn neat person but still, boys are still dirty and their laundry is always stinky and gross!

You are suck a wonderful, fun adn beautiful person! your husband just might not be ready for all your fabulouness yet! hnag in there :)

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